October 6, 2011

  • once again...

    listening to bruno mar's all she knows...

    i am crying again and start typing out my unspeakable words

    I feel so depressed when I heard the news that Steve Jobs died

    "Steve Job has been the architect of major shifts in the music,
    smart-phones and personal computer markets."

    I am losing my words, I don't know how to express the painful feeling

    like someone leave the world and we don't know how painful he was 
    when he was striving painfully through his heath issue and Apple

    apart from that, I feel so stressed from my work loads...
    it's TOO MUCH! i can't endure...but I still have to do... 
    and it's driving me crazy so much I have no idea what to do
    do u know how it feels when you want to relieve pressure but you can't?
    do you know how it feels when you can only cry soundless ?
    do you understand how much tensions
    it could be to grab and nearly tear off the pillow?
    do you understand how helpless it is, 
    to be with people that makes no difference with living by yourself?
    I am so tired and I want to leave this exhausting place
    do you understand how much tears I have fallen to type this?
    do you understand how embarrassing you can only lie to people you are not crying?

    maybe I just need some time to calm down...

     

    冷靜左一陣之後 諗返起今日其實都過得唔錯…
    今日成班同學同spanish老師去peruvian既餐廳食野
    食到好好味既chicken aguadito 類似泡飯咁既野
    同朋友傾左好多計 送左一支寫住david既筆
    同埋decorate得好令既生日卡送比佢 好開心佢開心
    佢好似我第2個爸爸咁 比起呢個屋企 有家庭感覺
    趁佢咩都唔知既時候 我地比個大蛋糕surprise比佢
    佢個陣真係嚇左一跳 哈哈 我地就跟住唱英文生日歌
    spanish既生日歌太難唱 我地就連埋waiter唱生日歌比佢聽
    我見到佢咁開心 我更覺得開心 我覺得我盡左能力令佢開心
    佢好似好中意我生日卡到貼左我地2個一齊影既相：）
    佢笑既時候 令我諗起香港既爸爸 
    每次睇親我d相 都會笑到隻眼一條線既幸福笑容
    走既時候 我地擁抱 我同佢講佢真係我第2個爸爸咁
    佢話我邊有咁老呀 我話你都唔係好老姐
    佢目送我地出門口喇 跟住eric車我返屋企 
    哈哈 第4次佢車我返屋企 佢係唯一一個帶我去玩既人
    所以我好多謝佢 成日車我 ：）
    feliz cumpleaños mr david sanchez
    wish you healthy and happy everyday

    雖然呢一日我唔係好開心好攰好大壓力
    但係諗返起一個幸福既笑容 我已經冇咁唔開心